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Not a lot of words with multiple syllables or more than 4 letters to say about the recent stupidity.  That will probably change, but I'm trying to focus on self-care at the moment.

That aside, things are things. Ok.. so maybe I lied.  Those of us who are COVID conscious and have continued to mask and distance in public places and being mindful of bubble interactions probably already knew how things would turn out.  When we can't even get the liberals who claim to care about vulnerable people and human rights to put on a mask, what hope would we have for anybody else to do any real heavy lifting?

Yeah.. I'm a little angry.  Lot going on.

My father is at the end of his life, and I've been no-contact with him for about 13 years now.  My step-mom tracked me down recently to let me know he is dying and tried, even after I told her that I still wasn't interested in contact, to convince me to come see him anyways.  Now I'm having to teach her what boundaries are and that if she wants to have contact with me, that she is going to have to learn to respect them.  I did try and be as sympathetic and kind as I was able.  She certainly doesn't need any problems from me with what all she's dealing with now.  But in light of why I went no-contact, I did need her to understand that there are lines she needs to be aware of and to respect.  I'm not optimistic of how well that will be received, but I'm open to being surprised.

Self-care looks like playing a lot of Minecraft and Skyrim and self soothing with sweets and other things that are probably not good for me in the long run.  I'll figure it out. 

Work is a lot.  I keep noticing signs that money has gone past the point of being tight.  Experience tells me that usually means layoffs are on the way.  Nothing has been said, and they've always been, "We've never had layoffs," but things do feel kinda shaky to me. Not sure how that will work considering at least my team is already short-staffed for just keeping the lights on.  I suppose if they outsource us, that's one way.  Earlier mention of anger comes back to this too because not only are we as a hospital really not taking COVID seriously, but the critical parts of the early pandemic are what put us on our butt financially in the first place.  And we're kinda back where we were now.  I feel like I need to start a PBS show called, This Old Sisyphean Life.

I'm trying to figure out what the next pages look like.  I'm kinda ready to abandon my career and find something that helps me feel better about myself while also allowing me to continue to be safe given all things.  Not sure what that looks like, but if any of you have thoughts of either work-from-home or COVID-safe jobs, i'd be interested in hearing.  I do IT work now, but I'm pretty much trying to open my options up to anything that isn't intense physical labor.  Definitely time for a change.

Early today we discovered our sewer is backed up. The landlord is here to sort it out.  Hopefully it won't be as difficult a problem as last time.  But hey.. nothing like a visceral and olfactory demonstration of where things are at.  Fun times.

Drains and toilets aside, we are chugging along. 

It might be good to start keeping track of things here more.  We'll see if motivation manages.