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glitch25Been ages since I've posted.
Not for lack of something to say, I think. More that a lot of what I would say I don't have the energy to regurgitate. Been kinda rough-ish lately on the personal front. Not a whole lot going south on the outside. Work could be better, but it is what it is. Things there are changing a lot almost every day, so new opportunities present themselves. Chosen family is pretty damn great. :-) We've made a few adjustments over the last couple months that have made things interesting and nifty. Reaffirmations of plans and commitments.
I guess there has just been a lot of little things kinda gnawing at me. Anything from money issues to the fact that I probably haven't properly grieved yet over the loss of one of my cats. Work has been a special pain and I've been learning how to defer the frustrations. Frustrations that have beaten be down enough that I've contemplated radical career changes.
One of the big things that has been difficult is the desire I've had to change the mindset I have where I feel the overwhelming need to make things go the way I want them to all the time. I'd say I manage to be a good example of control freak. :-) I have been working on letting some of that go. There are times where the skill of micro-managing is useful. However, allowed to take over, it's an amazing burden. Then again, trying to let go of it is its own burden. Fun times. Hopefully as things progress, it will get easier.
In the meantime, I'm soldiering on. Music is helping. Loves are helping.
How are you?
Not for lack of something to say, I think. More that a lot of what I would say I don't have the energy to regurgitate. Been kinda rough-ish lately on the personal front. Not a whole lot going south on the outside. Work could be better, but it is what it is. Things there are changing a lot almost every day, so new opportunities present themselves. Chosen family is pretty damn great. :-) We've made a few adjustments over the last couple months that have made things interesting and nifty. Reaffirmations of plans and commitments.
I guess there has just been a lot of little things kinda gnawing at me. Anything from money issues to the fact that I probably haven't properly grieved yet over the loss of one of my cats. Work has been a special pain and I've been learning how to defer the frustrations. Frustrations that have beaten be down enough that I've contemplated radical career changes.
One of the big things that has been difficult is the desire I've had to change the mindset I have where I feel the overwhelming need to make things go the way I want them to all the time. I'd say I manage to be a good example of control freak. :-) I have been working on letting some of that go. There are times where the skill of micro-managing is useful. However, allowed to take over, it's an amazing burden. Then again, trying to let go of it is its own burden. Fun times. Hopefully as things progress, it will get easier.
In the meantime, I'm soldiering on. Music is helping. Loves are helping.
How are you?