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Feb. 7th, 2024 12:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
glitch25One of my latest jokes about getting older is that I spent my youth babying my body, and now as I get older it shows its gratefulness by breaking down. As I peek over into 52 this week (Friday!) I have become acutely aware of how my sedentary lifestyle has done a number on me. The little voice that for the past 20 years has said that I should move more and do more is finally gotten to the screaming stage and I think I'm finally listening. hehe. I can say of my just over half century in the world, I can continue to never be accused of learning lessons the easy way. I'd consider it a fault, but in its own way, it has helped shape parts of me I rather enjoy.
As I continue to crest over into the latter half of the century, coupled with *waves hands around at the state of the world*, I find myself looking to ways to make my life easier and to help me enjoy my time. Some of this has included taking up a more active effort into vegetable and herb gardening. It is a great way to get real-time feedback for your efforts. Kids? Nah. Gimme a dozen basil plants and a cat. Heh. I do really enjoy seeing work paying off in the form of tangible visible gardens. And it is nice to get out, and move and do the things and know that effort will be rewarded.
I do also spend a significant amount of my waking hours buried in a video game of one stripe or another. I think that stems from having a place where I have more perceived control of outcomes. When I invest time in Minecraft, I build the thing and I can see and experience it within the game. When I play Skyrim, I collect the things and can see that progress and I complete quests and see that progress. And that experience generates the brain chemicals.
The world continues to tilt towards destruction and I feel like I only have so much energy to devote to improving that in direct ways and the brain chemical return on investment is a hard play right now. But I'm trying to stay aware of issues and certainly voting and encouraging others to do so. I'm also big on mutual aid and have been making a point of investing in people lately. Some I know who need help with a project and many I don't know who just need help getting their next meal or a roof over their heads. I imagine there is a brain chemical return on that, but I do it mostly because I can. People ask for help, I can help. It really is as simple as that.
I find that generally I'm just doing more to take care of myself and trying hard to steer clear of things that bring me down. A lot of that has involved becoming more aware of who I am and what I want, and what of that has changed in the last 4 years as a result of *waves arms around*. Some of it has been finally deciding to finish up projects and plans that got left hanging for various reasons, and pushing the stone forward. Just doing that part has also gotten me to make decisions about things that might not bring me the happiness I thought they would, and cutting loose the burden of carrying the idea or the half-finished process.
All in all, I continue to move forward feeling reasonably good about life and where things sit and finding comfort in the now and also in the strategy of being open to the inevitability of change. Tomorrow could turn us on our heads or kick us out on our butts. But we're still alive and we can be afforded the ability to choose how we face what is to come.
As I continue to crest over into the latter half of the century, coupled with *waves hands around at the state of the world*, I find myself looking to ways to make my life easier and to help me enjoy my time. Some of this has included taking up a more active effort into vegetable and herb gardening. It is a great way to get real-time feedback for your efforts. Kids? Nah. Gimme a dozen basil plants and a cat. Heh. I do really enjoy seeing work paying off in the form of tangible visible gardens. And it is nice to get out, and move and do the things and know that effort will be rewarded.
I do also spend a significant amount of my waking hours buried in a video game of one stripe or another. I think that stems from having a place where I have more perceived control of outcomes. When I invest time in Minecraft, I build the thing and I can see and experience it within the game. When I play Skyrim, I collect the things and can see that progress and I complete quests and see that progress. And that experience generates the brain chemicals.
The world continues to tilt towards destruction and I feel like I only have so much energy to devote to improving that in direct ways and the brain chemical return on investment is a hard play right now. But I'm trying to stay aware of issues and certainly voting and encouraging others to do so. I'm also big on mutual aid and have been making a point of investing in people lately. Some I know who need help with a project and many I don't know who just need help getting their next meal or a roof over their heads. I imagine there is a brain chemical return on that, but I do it mostly because I can. People ask for help, I can help. It really is as simple as that.
I find that generally I'm just doing more to take care of myself and trying hard to steer clear of things that bring me down. A lot of that has involved becoming more aware of who I am and what I want, and what of that has changed in the last 4 years as a result of *waves arms around*. Some of it has been finally deciding to finish up projects and plans that got left hanging for various reasons, and pushing the stone forward. Just doing that part has also gotten me to make decisions about things that might not bring me the happiness I thought they would, and cutting loose the burden of carrying the idea or the half-finished process.
All in all, I continue to move forward feeling reasonably good about life and where things sit and finding comfort in the now and also in the strategy of being open to the inevitability of change. Tomorrow could turn us on our heads or kick us out on our butts. But we're still alive and we can be afforded the ability to choose how we face what is to come.