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The daily grind
Been a while since I've written much, so thought I'd add a little.
Things go. I find that my days get blurred into feeling stressed and anxious and then finding successful ways to de-stress and wind down. Less about days of the week and more about this cycle. I recognize it's not healthy, and though I don't feel any long term effects, or short term problems, I know it's going to be hard to transition back once there is reason to do so. Right now, I try to accept that this is reality, and while it would be nice that it's not, it is what it is.
Most of my regular stress relievers are at least scratching the surface. I find myself buried in video gaming more than I have in past. I think that has as much to do with disconnecting as it does with feeling like there is a space in the world over which I have some measure of control. Even if by all meaningful accounts, it isn't real. We caught the Minecraft bug over the Fall after a trip to the MoPop's Minecraft exhibit. I miss that place. More on that in a bit. But I sink a fair amount of time there. Again, I think the fact that I have a great deal more control over it than real life adds to the appeal. I also resurrected Skyrim and am working through a campaign there too. I try not to worry too much about it, and at least in Minecraft, it has taken on a social aspect as well since I game with a few close friends.
One of the things I've been doing in the physical world (or the curvy world, as a friend puts it) is working on the garden. Part of it is maintaining the work I did over the last year, and part of it is continuing to add and update the work previous. I'm really happy with the efforts and results so far. We have a nice bed that is doing so much better than when we found it. We have roses that look tended.. We have some irises blooming. Lilies are budding and coming up. And daisies are not far behind. The columbine we seeded this year is already blooming, and the columbine that struggled last year has come back stronger and is doing really well this year. A few weeks ago, I discovered a blackberry "tree" that had grown in the side yard that we never look at and managed to take it down to the trunk. More work yet to dig it out, but it felt good to knock it back. I think one of the appeals of gardening is that my physical labor translates into very visible progress.
I've also been spending time practicing and learning more with my instruments. Specifically the bass and keys. I average time about every other day. . Sometimes every day. Sometimes it's going over stuff I know and others is learning new things. I figure any time I spend with my hands on them is time that also shows its fruits. I don't know that I have goals so much as just continuing to get better at what I do, and learn more things to make playing and performing easier.
Work is work. Part of my weekly anxiety stems from having to go into work occasionally. Recently I got really fed up with the fact that there are people who work for a hospital that don't seem on board with the whole masking thing. It's infuriating. I wrote a pleading email to our head MD in my department and got some encouraging feedback. Hoping that it gets figured out. The nature of my job requires that I go in, and it really scares me to be around people that don't seem to understand how dangerous this is. At a hospital, no less.
We're continuing to stay healthy and chug along. Much dismay among us each about the fact that things are opening up and the public seems at odds with caring for other people. And by that I mean people aren't wearing masks or social distancing. I would say I don't get it, but I do. It's a daily reminder of what a good sized chunk of this country is all about. And a reminder of how much there is to do to fix it.. Or to proverbially burn it down.
Hope you all are doing well and staying safe, and keeping others safe. We'll get there. *hugs*
Things go. I find that my days get blurred into feeling stressed and anxious and then finding successful ways to de-stress and wind down. Less about days of the week and more about this cycle. I recognize it's not healthy, and though I don't feel any long term effects, or short term problems, I know it's going to be hard to transition back once there is reason to do so. Right now, I try to accept that this is reality, and while it would be nice that it's not, it is what it is.
Most of my regular stress relievers are at least scratching the surface. I find myself buried in video gaming more than I have in past. I think that has as much to do with disconnecting as it does with feeling like there is a space in the world over which I have some measure of control. Even if by all meaningful accounts, it isn't real. We caught the Minecraft bug over the Fall after a trip to the MoPop's Minecraft exhibit. I miss that place. More on that in a bit. But I sink a fair amount of time there. Again, I think the fact that I have a great deal more control over it than real life adds to the appeal. I also resurrected Skyrim and am working through a campaign there too. I try not to worry too much about it, and at least in Minecraft, it has taken on a social aspect as well since I game with a few close friends.
One of the things I've been doing in the physical world (or the curvy world, as a friend puts it) is working on the garden. Part of it is maintaining the work I did over the last year, and part of it is continuing to add and update the work previous. I'm really happy with the efforts and results so far. We have a nice bed that is doing so much better than when we found it. We have roses that look tended.. We have some irises blooming. Lilies are budding and coming up. And daisies are not far behind. The columbine we seeded this year is already blooming, and the columbine that struggled last year has come back stronger and is doing really well this year. A few weeks ago, I discovered a blackberry "tree" that had grown in the side yard that we never look at and managed to take it down to the trunk. More work yet to dig it out, but it felt good to knock it back. I think one of the appeals of gardening is that my physical labor translates into very visible progress.
I've also been spending time practicing and learning more with my instruments. Specifically the bass and keys. I average time about every other day. . Sometimes every day. Sometimes it's going over stuff I know and others is learning new things. I figure any time I spend with my hands on them is time that also shows its fruits. I don't know that I have goals so much as just continuing to get better at what I do, and learn more things to make playing and performing easier.
Work is work. Part of my weekly anxiety stems from having to go into work occasionally. Recently I got really fed up with the fact that there are people who work for a hospital that don't seem on board with the whole masking thing. It's infuriating. I wrote a pleading email to our head MD in my department and got some encouraging feedback. Hoping that it gets figured out. The nature of my job requires that I go in, and it really scares me to be around people that don't seem to understand how dangerous this is. At a hospital, no less.
We're continuing to stay healthy and chug along. Much dismay among us each about the fact that things are opening up and the public seems at odds with caring for other people. And by that I mean people aren't wearing masks or social distancing. I would say I don't get it, but I do. It's a daily reminder of what a good sized chunk of this country is all about. And a reminder of how much there is to do to fix it.. Or to proverbially burn it down.
Hope you all are doing well and staying safe, and keeping others safe. We'll get there. *hugs*